A note to future-self
Dear future self,
I am reckless
and I don’t know where am I heading to.
Apparently, I am coming to you,
But by the time I reach, you would have long left.
There is much that I am going through
to become you.
But as I just said, I am impulsive.
Hence my thinking needs a validation,
my actions need a justification,
and my heart needs a confirmation;
that I am on the right path.
If only you could let me know a few things…
I have made a list- would be easy for us both.
Would you tell me
if my actions are making sense out there?
Am I finally able to make the things work my way?
Am I living my dream, or still moving towards it?
Have my imprudent decisions brought out the best in me?
Have my efforts reached the benchmark of “enough” for the ones I love?
Does he love me the way I have always deserved?
Do I still dwell upon people’s thoughts;
pondering upon what they think of me?
Do I still sometimes cry silently in the dark?
Have I been living for the happiness of others, too lately?
Please tell me you are in a place where I have always wanted to be.
I need an assurance that I can resort myself to.
I need the confidence over making my own choices.
I need a verdict over my audacity.
I know it’s difficult for you,
And that you too seek for your future self.
I know, it will never ever end.
and maybe that is how things are supposed to be.
For now, I just pray that
the future self-reading this is happy
and content with each of my efforts;
And believes that I took the best possible road
to reach her.